THE LIFE IN THE OUTSIDE WORLD
THE LIFE IN THE OUTSIDE WORLD
It's quite funny how one day you are living a free and peaceful life , suddenly that all changes to bondful and stressfull life.
I always dreamt of getting married and having kids of my own within my marriage, being faithful to one woman, and being a true man of God . Well my life changed in a blink of an eye, without even having a moment to sit down and think i guess, in truth i had that moment to decide but ignorance was a very bad choice i took. One moment you have friends the next everybody is looking at you as if they never knew you, i think thats one of the most painful moments in my life, and yet the most awarding one.
When you are in the situation where i was , you totally get blinded by all truths, in your mind you know that drinking, smoking, lying, and adultry is wrong. but you just dont see it that way cause you dont think the same anymore.
That specific way of thinking is what brought me exactly to where iam today.
Coming back to the town where my family is and starting to hangout with old friends, obviously i ended doing the same things that they were doing and even worse than them, that many of them word say "Gobi you CRAZY" , in there terms that seemed quite amazing but yet judging me cause they knew i was'nt like that , that i lived a different life . In 2011 i became a father of two very beautiful daughters, but even the way they were conceived was in a sinful way cause i wasnt married as i always dreamt of, i wasnt dating the mothers since i was playing both of them at the same time, my daughters are just a month apart from each other. the drinking started very heavily and the smoking followed.
Now to remove the burdens that accompanied all the things i went through in this past 4 years, is not a joke, the fight for a better and free life still continues, the only thing that still keeps me alive each day is my dream that one day i will make it, there is no givingup there is just the WAY FORWARD, Iam swimming through a very rough and deep sea but i have faith that i will reach the shore .
It's quite funny how one day you are living a free and peaceful life , suddenly that all changes to bondful and stressfull life.
I always dreamt of getting married and having kids of my own within my marriage, being faithful to one woman, and being a true man of God . Well my life changed in a blink of an eye, without even having a moment to sit down and think i guess, in truth i had that moment to decide but ignorance was a very bad choice i took. One moment you have friends the next everybody is looking at you as if they never knew you, i think thats one of the most painful moments in my life, and yet the most awarding one.
When you are in the situation where i was , you totally get blinded by all truths, in your mind you know that drinking, smoking, lying, and adultry is wrong. but you just dont see it that way cause you dont think the same anymore.
That specific way of thinking is what brought me exactly to where iam today.
Coming back to the town where my family is and starting to hangout with old friends, obviously i ended doing the same things that they were doing and even worse than them, that many of them word say "Gobi you CRAZY" , in there terms that seemed quite amazing but yet judging me cause they knew i was'nt like that , that i lived a different life . In 2011 i became a father of two very beautiful daughters, but even the way they were conceived was in a sinful way cause i wasnt married as i always dreamt of, i wasnt dating the mothers since i was playing both of them at the same time, my daughters are just a month apart from each other. the drinking started very heavily and the smoking followed.
Now to remove the burdens that accompanied all the things i went through in this past 4 years, is not a joke, the fight for a better and free life still continues, the only thing that still keeps me alive each day is my dream that one day i will make it, there is no givingup there is just the WAY FORWARD, Iam swimming through a very rough and deep sea but i have faith that i will reach the shore .
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